A few weeks ago I had a cracked windshield.
I didn’t see it in the morning when I was driving, but when I got into my car in the afternoon, there it was. Long and hard to miss.
In the days before I got it replaced, I watched the crack snake its way across the windshield.
Every now and then when I was driving, something bright would catch me out of the corner of my eye. It would be the sun reflected in the crack.
It’s not unusual for the sun to hit the windshield; that happens all the time, but because there was a break in the glass, the light had something new to reflect off. And so I was made more aware of the sun’s presence when I was driving.
Around the same time as this, I was wrestling through disappointment.
I was angry, hurt, confused and heartbroken.
One evening during this time when I was praying (read: venting) to God about this, I saw picture of a heart of glass. The heart was broken, but still whole. There were cracks running all through it, but it was still held together.
What struck me with this picture was that each crack caught the light and reflected it.
The more cracks the heart had, the more light was reflected.
Another way to illustrate this is if you think of a diamond with its many facets. Each of the facets reflects and glistens in light. In the same way, this broken heart was glistening as it reflected light.
I felt God say to me, a broken heart is not a bad thing, it is an opportunity to reflect more of My light.
An unbroken glass simply lets light pass through, but a broken glass captures the light and reflects it.
Yes, cracks can be a sign of brokenness if you choose to focus on that. But they can be a sign of something greater: they can be a platform to reflect the Light of the Father, who meets us in our brokenness, in every heartbreak and disappointment.
If we choose the latter view, and if we let our loving Father come into that break, then every heartbreak and disappointment becomes an opportunity to reflect the love He pours into us in that hurt.
Disappointment and heartbreak is never fun. Proverbs 15:13 echoes this when it says
A happy heart makes the face cheerful,Proverbs 15:13 NIV
but heartache crushes the spirit.
Oh, how the spirit is crushed.
But we fool ourselves if we think God is distant in the hurt.
Psalm 56:8 says
You’ve kept track of all my wandering and my weeping.Psalm 56:8 TPT
You’ve stored my many tears in your bottle – not one will be lost.
You care about me every time I’ve cried.
For it is all recorded in your book of remembrance.
And Psalm 38:9 says
Lord, you know all my desires and deepest longings.Psalm 38:9 TPT
My tears are liquid words and you can read them all.
God is in the heartbreak. He is in the brokenness. He is in the disappointment.
Let us not forget that when our fragile hearts experience another break.
But as we experience the hurt of it (and oh how it can hurt), let us remember that our loving Father is close by, collecting our tears and knowing deeply the hurt we feel. And in time, there is no rush, let us let His lovingkindness flow into that break and fill it with His light.
Then after a while, that break will no longer be a place of hurt. It will be a place of glorifying God as we reflect His healing light.
In the same way, let your light shine before all men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven.Matthew 5:16 NIV